When will I be considered in any of this?

My husband decided to start his own "business".  I was never consulted on any of it.  He's spent upwards of $7000.00 on this business in 6 short months and it has made $0.00.  Ever see that show "Storage Wars"?  This house is busting at the gills with other people's garbage.  We apparently now are renting a storage unit to house even more of this trash.  Again, I was not consulted on any of this.  At what point is enough enough?  Why am I allowing myself to be repeatedly run over by this man?  I guess the only person that can save me here, is me.  Can you hear me now?

Life stolen

I came across a picture of my sister today.  It was one I hadn't really seen before.  And I cried.  I cried for the person she would have been if that predator had not come into our lives.  I saw the innocence lost. I found myself grieving for the person she could have been if she didn't have this horrifying thing happen to her at such a young age.  I am surprised at this many years later how angry I am over it.  Could I have done something, anything to stop it?  I miss her so much.

My personal hell

You're looking at what has become my life without my consultation, counsel, or consent. I HATE every bit of it, and that is putting it mildly.

Be very glad that you are not living this.

If I can't help me.........

then I surely have no business trying to help someone else. 

I thought that the experiences that we have in life were for us to learn from and overcome possibly We could then be that fountain of wisdom for someone else who would eventually cross our path, and we would be able to make their load lighter.  Or perhaps, shared our lantern so they could see the way more clearly, offered our hand when they stumbled.

I've recently discovered that I am in no position to be that person.  It would seem more that people are put in our path to glaringly cast a spotlight on all of our mistakes, or administer that all important, "I told you so".
In all of my efforts to make wrong things right, I've set a terrible precedent to those who unwittingly would follow me through no choice of their own.  I've conveyed the message, "I don't think I'm valuable, and you shouldn't value me either".

I know nothing.  In the grand scheme of things.  I don't see myself getting any smarter about anything.  Right now I just feel that everything I've gone through has been for not.

Someone's having a birthday...........

And has no idea what they are in for...........yet.

Oh yeah!

View from the driver's side.

That's right it's filled with balloons.

Sadly, I ran out of balloons before it was completely filled up. There's 72 of them in there.  However, just imagine dealing with this at 6:00am and you're headed for work.  What to do, what to do?

Happy Birthday, Lee!

I'm awesome like that. :)

Planking fun............................

I love, love, love my kids!!!  My 16 year old son makes for some wonderful laughs in our home.  I was uploading some photos and had forgotten about one hilarious night he and I were having with the camera.

Gotta love this kid.

Planking my exercise ball.

Planking the dining room table.

Planking my exercise step.

Planking a chair.

Planking my car in the garage.

Planking the toillette.

Planking the lawn chair.

Planking the electrical boxes out front.

Planking the cab of Dad's truck.

Planking the back of Dad's truck.

Planking the block wall.

Planking his bed.

Planking the half wall between the living room and dining room.

My Mark definitely makes me laugh.

It's the little things.........

that you get excited about.  I've been researching, taken polls, and studied the pros and cons of having an above-the-range microwave. 

Finally, the need for much needed counter top real estate, approximately a year of research, and a wicked model closeout sale at Best Buy won me over.  Let me just say that I love it and my kitchen is now huge.

I was kidding about the huge kitchen, but, you get the gist. :)