Hunger Games

Looking forward to a little movie called the Hunger Games in March.  Have you read the books?  I read all three of them last month.  I really enjoyed them.  Not enough to replace my Twilight obsession, but enough that I'm very excited to see this movie. 

I love it when they make movies out of books.  It's funny though, when they cast the characters in the movies, I can never again picture what I thought the character looked like in my head.  Oh well, at least they pick some pretty people. :)

Touched by an angel........

I know this gal because she was in my ward when we moved here almost 5 years ago.  Then, my daughter married her cousin.  This gal was pregnant with her first child in 8 years of marriage, a blessing definitely wanted and waited a very long time for.

Tonight this gal gave birth at 38 weeks to a stillborn baby girl.  What heartbreak this little family is experiencing right now.  By extension, this heartbreak is being felt right along with them by so many.  Whether family, friend, or acquaintance (I think I fall more into the acquaintance category, as they moved to military life shortly after we got here) we have been touched by this precious angel.  This beautiful daughter of our Heavenly Father.

Where I work, there is a gal who is pregnant with her first child.  After 12 years of marriage and her resignation that it probably wouldn't be a blessing realized.  She is due to give birth any day.  We are so excited for her.

I am struck with quiet reverence tonight.  For the blessing of children, and feeling like I want to hug and hold each of mine and just let the tears fall.  Tears of happiness for my children who make my life whole.  Tears of sadness for women (for we are all mothers) who's arms are empty for whatever reason and knowing that Heavenly Father has a plan for each and every one of us. 

God be with you, Mihaela Jane.  

This isn't a blog.....it's a whine fest

Ugh.  I hate my blog.  I'm about to make a huge change.  I've decided I can't talk about certain things anymore. 

Today would have been my Grandma Hedberg's 82nd birthday.  She has been gone from this earth since 1981.  I still miss her so much.  She was pretty much the glue that held the family together. I hope to be the kind of grandma that she was to me.  She always seemed so happy to see us. 

Pretty much as happy as I am to see this little face.......

Oh, and she's just as happy to see mine!!!  I just love her to pieces and love that she reaches for me when she sees me, and cries when I go away.
Come to think of it, it's been a couple days.  I need a Makayla fix.  Now.

You don't know me.

Been feeling beaten down of late. Actually feeling rather alone. 

I've tried to always do what I think my Heavenly Father expects of me.  I have sought out the help of so called family only to be rejected and scorned.  It would seem as though I'm not worthy of compassion of any sort.  I've been labeled as things that I am not.  At first, it makes me angry and then, when the anger has subsided I am left with the thought, "You don't know me." 

If you really knew me, you wouldn't treat me so poorly.  I AM a good person. All I have ever done is try to help other people.  I have heard the things people have said about me when they've thought I didn't hear them.  You just don't know me.

 

Oops, I did it again.

Christmas has come and gone.  Again.  I'm going to be honest here, my Christmas was ruined.  It isn't important to you why, but it was.

I didn't get around to Christmas cards and newsletters because I didn't have the strength to put a positive spin on what I've been experiencing.  I didn't get the Christmas tree up until the Thursday before Christmas and I had to because I couldn't steal Christmas away from Mark.  He deserves the very best of me.

Christmas has always been my favorite time of year.  This year I couldn't wait for it to be over so that I didn't have to experience the heartache of knowing that others were feeling so blessed, and it just passed me over.

No lights on the house.  No decorating of every room in the house that I've loved so much in the past. 

I got a note in the mail today saying that they missed my letter.  I am sorry. 

She's had a birthday, shout hooray!

Lady Bits is One!!! Ooh, I just love this girl to pieces. She had an awesome birthday complete with family and baby friends. She was dressed in a cute pink and silver tutu skirt, pink, glitttery butterfly shirt, hairbows to match, and pretty silver shoes. The party got under way and there were blowers for everyone until Miss Makayla started to eat hers.

Makayla is about one of the neatest eaters you've ever met. She doesn't like food on her face and when she eats her snacks, she takes dainty little bites. Did I mention that I love her? She got a lot of new toys and some necessities.

Another shot of Makayla and Uncle Mark. They share a very special relationship.

Auntie Brittany comes over on her days off just to play.

I can't believe how fast this first year has gone! Makayla, you are so loved. Happy First Birthday sweetness.

Agency and Elder Bednar.

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The word agency is bandied about quite a bit when one is making choices that are contrary to what they should. Elder Bednar came to our stake last month when our stake presidency was reorganized. Let me just say that what he had to say on the matter was very timely. To quote Elder Bednar, "Agency is not to do what you want when you will." In the instance where one has made sacred covenants to be a witness of Jesus Christ and to do His will, your agency is then to do just that. To do anything to the contrary of that once you have made those covenants is to your detriment. Therefore, yes, we do have free agency. It does not mean you can do whatever you want. I love Elder Bednar and his forthrightness. He, in my opinion is the Dr. Phil of apostles. Telling it like it is.