Do you think that it is possible to know what kind of mother you are or were in this life? I know that we probably shouldn't look to our children for acknowledgement, it behooves being a humble, self-sacrificing, never looking for the glory in the mundane of everyday mom.
I have been touched over the course of my life, of children who were very expressive to and about their mothers and the wonderful examples they were. It's easy when they are very young, to know exactly how they feel about you. When they are hurt, they come running to mom to make it all better. The unsolicited hugs and kisses and the "I love you mommies", priceless treasures to behold.
But, what about when they get older? It's "natural" for children to want to separate from their parents and establish their own identities. Does this mean that we are no longer useful? Have we expired? Does the umbilical cord ever really sever?
I just ponder what kind of mother that I am and if I have made any difference in the world for my having been there. I didn't have the luxury of not having to work, and I really feel that it has gotten in the way of being the most wonderful of mothers. Am I the only one who thinks this way?
2 comments:
No matter how you feel your children will always need you. Growing up I didn't everything thing to get out of the house and not have to be with family. My mom and I never agreed. I would always tell myself that I NEVER wanted to be like her.
Then you grow up and graduate high school everyone moves on and you are left with the ones you tried to get aways from. My family are my best friends. I still call my mommy when I have an emotional "booboo" and she is always there. Children will always know there mothers. You are a wonderful person and I am sure your house was full of laughs all the time. I worry about the same things and my kids are still little.
The small things count even buying you a Jamba Juice out of the blue. :)
No matter how we try, I think all mothers feel inadequate. Personally, I feel even closer to my mother the older I get...after having a baby of my own I finally understand how much my parents really do love me. You are a wonderful mother and have been an example to me!
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