I've been sick this last week. Being sick, I don't tend to see the positive in life very well. Fallout from my childhood, I suppose. I don't enjoy being sick or enjoy being around people who are sick.
I'm considering shutting down my blog. I'm not as clever as I thought I was and it's too hard for me not to want to vent here. I don't have little kids at home that do cute little kid things, so what to blog about?
Life was easier when my kids were little. I didn't think so then, but I do now. I love my kids. I just don't know how to love some of the decisions that they make. Heavenly Father must think I can handle a lot more than I can. I beg to differ here.
Too much of my life has been defined by loss and the deep yearning for what I have never had. I'm not talking about material things, just things that most people have and take for granted that they have it. And it makes me mad that for whatever reason, it has been withheld from me.
2 years ago
9 comments:
For what it's worth, I completely understand your wanting to vent about things that have been withheld from you.
You are more than welcome to email me and vent all you want. You will always have my shoulder to cry on.
My life has been undergoing more and more changes, the good news is I'm slowly getting out of the rut I've been in since Decker died.
I love you.
Dawn
Please do not shut this down. It's nice to have something separate from Facebook.
When I need to vent, I usually try to save it for Kitchen Sink.
I am thinking that you must have been really sick to have such a drop in positive attitude.
While facing this surgery decision, I keep remembering things that you said to me about our kids and their age gaps. I think of you often and am glad that we are friends. You help me tackle "life-issues" headon. Thanks.
You're awesome.
DON'T SHUT IT DOWN! You may not post very often but most of the time its hilarious. There is no rule about how many times you must post.
Hopefully Women Conference will get you out of this rut. Smile you could be stuck in Junior Primary 24-7. Things could be worse.
You know you can always talk to me when you want. We could IM and talk on the phone the same time if you would like.
SMILE! Isn't that what you always tell me?
Charmen...for what its worth I check it all the time. Even if you are venting, its fun just to see what's on your mind. Life is hard. It's hard to BEE positive all the time. Its a fun way to check on ya even if your grumpy, overwhelmed, upset, sick, happy, elated, proud, pleased, of CHARMEN!
Keep it up!
Jen Mix
We love you too Charmen! I hope you don't shut your blog down. I love checking in whenever you post, it doesn't matter if there's a time gap. I enjoy seeing what you guys are up to.
No, No, No. That's my fit for today. I love to read your blog venting or otherwise. Who says you can't vent on a blog anyway????? I think you've been outvoted!!
Come on, Charmen, hang in there. What will I do without your blog? I'll miss seeing the beagles. I love the way you present yourself in words--what a talent. Maybe you should write a book. You are loved.
Just for the record, you are AMAZING! Whether you think so or not. Thanks for the fun phone conversation last night. We both needed it. Hang in there. You need to give yourself more credit. Love you.
Aaahhh! Don't shut down your blog!!! I read it, and I don't mind one bit if you vent! Everyone vents! Venting is totally necessary!
And p.s. I loved your "Beary Cute" comment! See, that's my kinda clever!
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